Honestly, sometimes I yearn for love but I'm perfectly fine without it although I feel so lonely at times and just not sure if I can always rely on my friends because well... I have issues with trusting them sometimes and I know you'll probably thinking well what about the "boyfriend" well.. I never lost THAT much trust from my guy friends before so I don't really have problems trusting them and I feel most comfortable around them. I usually don't beat myself up because of something I think is so insignificant in my life but I guess what sort'a triggered these feelings is the people I'm meeting off of a game a play on PS3 (black ops 2) well yeah... I meet a lot of people and sometimes get totally attached to them then when I see their faces I just .. well I don't know sometimes I drop them completely or we don't talk as much anymore. I get such high hopes for them because they're such sweethearts or they sound like a well-toned deep voice man that haunts our dreams, but nope they turn out to be looking like Peter Griffin on drugs after taking a nice poop in the showers, yes the showers. Anyways I feel seriously hurt every time I make friends, grow attached and when I see how they look I just.. my heart just breaks. So this post is mostly me ranting and my feeling of loneliness, because sometimes I just want to meet the right guy.
-Elle Valor
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